I lost my virginity e thwaseni it was a place where I was supposed to do my training to become a Sangoma and help people but my gobela took my virginity and told me that it is expected as it was part of my training I have to sleep with him in oder for me to easily understand those ubizo things...
I started experiencing serious nightmare sometimes my mother would say things like I woke up at night and started to speak all by myself I was told that I have a calling of being a Sangoma since there has never being anyone called to be a Sangoma ko gae it became so difficult for me to accept whatever they told me every day things got worse that they were before I then accepted to go and complete the training so that i can start my new life
Few weeks after I stayed e thwaseni in process of my training my gobela told me that for my things gore di tsamaye hantle I need to sleep with him it's part of training and almost everybody has done it I mustn't be ashamed
I was a 16 year old girl who was sleeping with someone as my father's age I asked myself I eventually agreed to what he asked me to do
After I completed my training I returned home where a celebration was made 3 weeks after I was at home I started go tlhakatlhakana (feeling dizzy) my mother told me to go to the clinic were the doctor told me that I was 3 months pregnant being pregnant at my age was never part of my plan I was already behind with the school work how will I explain to my mather who the father of my child is I questioned myself I had mixed emotions and that was already to much for me